overcomerstonewbeginnings

So very true.  I is just a bit....I cant think of how to spelling it...sleep worthy .  I find I am requiring much more of that as well then I normally do.  I think my hormons have been for a ride as well.

I am going to some time soon to jearnal up some stuff as I was doing on the other forum.  I am not going to do that so openly on that site as I will no this one now because of others eyes.  But I know you all like to read what the Lord has been doing with me.  Losen my sweet belle was hard and it wiped out even wanting to think about writing and jearnaling, or even praying and talking to G-d.  One night I just went in my room, to be alone with G-d.  The best I can say is, I just has to set their with him.  I told him I just didnt want to be alone and I felt that way right then.  I didnt know what to say, and I feel so sor and teared inside from losing Belle.  So I was just going to set there with him, and not say anything, just be there with with him.  I know it was ok, and I didnt have to say a word.  That was another one of my sweet moments out of all this stuff going on.

I have a boat load of other things, exsiting stuff, that served to raise me up in my spirit and give hope in other areas of my life.  I might just go into some of those for it would do me good to fill my thoughts of positive stuff.  Might help me sleep some tonight.   

I am going to list my positive stuff...a kind of up-date of what has been happening...I might end and come back and add more to my list...so keep reading. 


1-I got to see my new church we have been going to grow in diffrent ways, meaningful ways.
2-I had a wonderful first serprized birthday party ever, given by then.  I really feel loved.
3-gained some new friends after the retreat we went on.  That is really cool to me.
4-the church has started and outreach, and kind of underground rascue mission....for fighting against human traficing.  We all very exsited.  The man that started it, put out head paster as Vis.priz of the board, giving him the power to move others in and out and to protect the foundation from crimb.  So he did background checks an all.  My hubby and I was asked to be house parents, and to councel and even pick up girls they are sent.  They wanted us because of me and my testamony.     Then after some time because of the background checks, the paster found out that the man that was starting it has some complants filed, and crimbs...so the paster called those the man worked with and found out that he had stole money from the foundations he set up.  So a great deal of us was broken hearted over it all...but the paster called us all back together and said, we can let it go, or we can pick this call up and run with it.  The paster started replacing 50% of the board the man picked with people from the church and just this pass wensday, guess what he did????  He asked me to be part of the board!  ME!?     I then was told that it was because of the women he was putting on the board all said I should be used, and was worried I might not want to do it.  I was like....COOL!  I was asked to do some paintings as well for the funraisers, and a site the man was butting up...but the man bulled back from the group after the paster asked for him to do his funraising apart from the group.  then the paster renamed the group completely and changed the groups papers or laws...I dont know how all that is works just yet...but I got to set in on our first meeting.  They are holding their firrst women's dinner/funraiser soon...and the some pretty big state leaders in this area will be comeing out to talk about all this stuff.  Guess what their logo is???  Butterfly! 

Do you guys remember dreams I posted on the other forum, before we moved where we live, we lived in another state and I had some dreams about being used to find kinapped people, kids and women, I believe the dreams I seen was just what others stated they might mean...a ministry helping to end human trafficing...

SWEET!