Oh, sister, I am so sad to hear the abuse of CYS. God sometimes uses evil for good. I know this as I have experienced it myself. The great God is beyond our ways and thinking, but the end of a matter with him is it glorifies him and brings His perfect will which brings great happiness in the end.
I do believe the Lord has special things set up for all who love him and it will be more than we hoped for.
Love bunches