overcomerstonewbeginnings

I have times in my life where I struggle with seeing those that are evil get good things, as we struggle through each day.

I will share some of it, know though that I see things diffrently now.

I watched as a sister inlaw, having her 3rd marriage, and all the rice things she could ever wants, but would abuse others with her tonge, like her own husband, over and over again.  She would let into me over and over again to try and get me to feel back for being a stay at home mother, homeschooling, and not having my own car, or even driving.  AS well that in her eyes I wouldnt stand up to my hubby and what she judged was wrong in my life infront of others.  I really sent my pretty green at times over how "emprassive" her life was, the dream! 

I has as well a pretty good friend at the time, having pretty much the same thing going on, just not to the total nasty ness.  She would focus on who many flaws my hubby had and let me and some others know about it.  She had lots of houses, and I didnt have one, didnt drive, and was a wife and mother...like I was less for that!  I was always put to the wall for when am I going to do this or that, and tell my hubby what I think, you know....take more control over everything...as if I not being like her was making me less.  AS well, It got to the point where I was shameful to be seen with them after a time.

I had struggles with relastionships in the family, when favoritiems seemed to be the rain much of the time...and I was made to look bad at every possible moment for not giving in, caving, or acting as all others wanted me to.  Theres are the ares I was mad eot feel bad about. 


Over time G-d helped me work on this area of my life.  I was showen that all those very things they had G-d was fullly able  to give me over time, just as they did them.  After all he is the same G-d right?!  As well I was somwen over time that they had all these proublems with me because I showwed just how much of a mass htey where so the mad it their goals to make me feel and look less they what I really was. 

It is sti

Soooo!  After some time I look back, the friend, well, she doenst talk to me any more, and she has none of her houses.  I am left feeling said about all of this for her life being buiolt up like that only to see all go fast in a pretty bad storm.

My sister inlaw is losin everything  as well as her husband, it is a pretty bad mass as well there....(pray for them) they fight ove rthe kids all the time, and do lots of head games.  They hav eno peace at all!

And as for the abusive behavor of theres I speek of, well I have peace now from this...as well as all know the truth and leave me alone.  That is really like, and came with lots and lots of time!


Moving where we are right now, G-d has sohwen me not to set my eyes on mans ways of doing things, for it leads away from G-d.  And that G-d does and will take care of his own. 





OH yea, I just found out that the hosuethat was forclosed acrossed the street from me just closed for 40,000 dollers.  WE might be albe to get the house we are in if they come down on the price like that!   


I just have to make a point not to let my eyes and mind go theour over what others have that might not deserve it at all.  For what we are doing by that is stating that G-d doenst know what he really is doing, and that we can do better for him.  I dont like this house, but if G-d found it right to help us get it, I would be would set my mind against the flash and know my Faher knows what is best for me, and by the time we both get done with this house, it will rock!


It is pretty hard to master this area, but I know it is beter for me to tryh,then to let it master me!